Tuesday, January 9, 2007

Bad News and cellphones

I don't have a cellphone anymore so i can avoid getting more bad news...but it is not working.
I am tired of being afraid of bad news, my phone rings and i am afraid the news will be "a friend or a relative is killed".
my brother is the only one who can call me, i gave him the office phone number and he checks on me every day whenever there is a cellphone network.
the most recent bad news were yesterday...
a neighbor of ours in Fallujah had a heart attack at 1 in the morning, it is curfew...
insurgents have bombed the landlines communications and cellphone towers (the coverage is so weak that you have to go to the second floor of the house and risk a near by American sniper hit thinking that you are up to something...and even by going to the roof of the house the cellphone network is not available all the time) so no one could make it and call for an ambulance or the police, who will not respond even if you called them being afraid of the terrorists who attacked ambulances and police cars that were carrying sick people to the hospital... once the police responded and took a pregnant woman to the hospital with her father and brother... an IED exploded killing the woman, her father and policemen.
The family and neighbors headed to the near by mosque (100 meters away) for help.
The Imam responded by turning the generators on and used the loudspeakers and asked the Iraqi police and army for help.... NO ONE RESPONDED...
The family watched their father die without receiving any help from any one....
God, i can not imagine being there.......
the other bad news before this one was my cousin Ali... he was killed with another 6 young friends (2 died later also) as they were playing SOCCER and an IED killed them all...
i am going to buy a cellphone again... it is not working...
The bad news will reach me even if I have only one person in Iraq who can call me... I have to live with it.

5 comments:

Jane said...

I just found your blog. It's very moving. You haven't written in awhile. Are you ok?

Anonymous said...

تبرىء الكلمات في القلوب

ثم همس الرب في قلوبنا...
الكلمات تصل حيث لا يقدر السلاح

سألنا حكيم قريتنا، كيف ينزل الدفء
على النفوس والشيطان
قد ألقى بسمومه المفضلة
خوفاً ويأساً وكراهية
على القلوب البريئة
كما الرماد من محرقة السعادة

كيف تنام عيون الايمان
وسرير الأمل
تفترشه ملاءة القنوط الشاحب
وعيون الحنث الفاسدة
تنتهك حرمة الكلمات المقدسة
وتسعد باغتيال هدايا السماء

وسألنا :كيف يبتسم الخير
ويصفع الكره الفضيلة من وجه الخجل
و أتباعه يشوهون ويحرفون فى نفوس ضحاياهم
حتى يصل الاعتقاد
بأن الإثم فضيلة والقتل عدالة والكره هو الحب

تحدث الحكيم
بصوته الخفيض وقال
أن للشيطان أتباع
يغتسلون في أنهار النبيذ في حادي*
وبعشق السخرية الفارغ
يحصدون نفوساً مغشوشة جنيت بمنجل الانتحار

مستحيل أن يكون الطريق إلى الفردوس مرصوفاً
بجثث الأبرياء - عبر نهرٍ من الدم
اعتنقوا مد الحق وجزره الرائع في قلوبكم
تقبّلوا الشك والعار أينما كانوا
لكي تدركوا أن النفس تسعد بالعطف وليس بالانتقام

سطع صوته كالضوء وقال:
ابحثوا بشجاعة في أعماق قلوبكم
بلا نفاق ولا خداع ولا إجحاف
وحين تلمسوا الايمان هناك
ستنزل الكلمات الالهيه دواءً للقلوب
مثل مطر أبدي يجذبه البحر دائماً
حتى يرتفع ليملأ حرم النفوس
بودٍ عميق هادىء ويغدو سلاماً
على شواطىء العزم الالهي.


[أرض الموتى في الأساطير الاغريقية*

أبريل 2006

Anonymous said...

Do you have a water cooler at your office?
Its good to have water around and to dump it every other day if you dod not have water cooler at work. If you do evry so often take a drink and think how cool it is and refreshing. Then think of your life and how this is changing you. After a while you will get the message. When you do tell a freind about it an suggest that they do the same.
From:
Cooking but not eating it all.

Joshua said...

www.iraqhasavoice.com is a new web site dedicated to collecting open letters from the Iraqi to the American people. We accept and post all letters. We would love to have your participation.
With peace,
~Josh

محمد حماد said...

Hi "erin"... i am fine thank you .. but i was busy and maybe frustrated... Thanks for evey one for their comments..."through grace peace" thank you for your beautiful word. "Josh" thank you i will participate soon and i'll send this link to my friends. "Anonymous" thank you for your advice it is good one